ugh, lately i’m having that “i’m not doing enough” feeling again it’s really confusing bouncing back and forth between “all that matters is to be fully present now, there is no past nor future” with all this philosophy i’m reading and also “i want more time to create, but i am getting overwhelmed by work, life admin, exercise, walking the dog, eating dinner, thinking about having a social life” i think i need to take some time to actually define what my goals are; as usual, i have my fingers in way too many pies 1st prio is definitely to finish my piece for the devconnect exhibition, which is very time consuming but it’s fine, i wholly enjoy and immerse myself in the process 2nd prio is to create a new batch of carvings to cast in silver, here i am running into a lot more friction because i kind of need to be in my studio since it makes such a mess i realized my last collection came out in feb this year; i was shooting for around 2 major tinyrainboot collections per year and i don’t see that happening for 2025 unless i decide to do something fully digital in december, which seems unlikely tbh idk, signpost metrics like that can be helpful but also harmful, at the end of the day i am still moving forward, i don’t know whether this pressure i place on myself motivates or depresses me tbh